– gradually then suddenly –
Creating a blog has been on my mind for what feels like forever. Since I can remember, I’ve always loved to write. I’ve always expressed myself better through the written word and there is something comforting about taking a pen to paper.
As life goes on, sometimes we lose touch with the things we love. Or sometimes we simply find that we love something a little more, so we turn our attention to that instead. As I’ve navigated through the last decade of my life – writing has just not had a place. There was never enough time, or enough ideas, or enough interest.
And with all of that – there was still always something in me that said “I’ll come back to that, I’m just not sure how”.
The honest truth is – my passion for writing didn’t die, it’s just that the topics I was familiar with writing about were no longer relevant to me. As my career has flourished and I’ve uncovered this passion, the ache for an outlet has slowly burned brighter. Then I became a mother – and that fire became a little bigger again. Next I discovered this excitement for wellness and again, the fire grew.
i just had to make sense of it all
As I grew in my career, in my journey towards wellness, and in motherhood – I kept coming back to two things: education and community. I felt like those were what kept me grounded, but also what kept me pushing through. Not only did I want to be educated, but I also wanted to help others feel educated, and empowered, and supported.
So in January 2017 I did not set any New Years resolutions. Instead, I chose a word. That word was “execute”. One of my biggest character flaws is that sometimes I simply do not have the ability to pull the trigger. It’s mostly stemmed in my constant need for things to be “just right” or executed flawlessly. It’s also very rooted in my fear of how it’ll be perceived.
it’s all in the name
In my pursuit of procrastination to execute this dream – I couldn’t think of a name for this endeavor. And I had to have a name. As someone who values branding and all that is entailed in building a brand – I was of course going to overthink this topic for months.
Nothing seemed to fit. Nothing made sense. Nothing worked. I wanted the word beauty – but I wanted it to be a strong depiction of beauty. I wanted something to tie me to my heritage, but without feeling too aggressive.
After months of endless ideas that just fell short – it hit me. It wasn’t particularly triggered by any one thing, but it just hit me.
Native American chiefs wore feathers to demonstrate their connection with the higher spirit and to express wisdom. Additionally, Native American warriors were awarded feathers when they were brave in battle, and each feather held a different meaning.
Traditionally, the bigger the headdress – the more accomplished and respected the leader. What is most fascinating to me is that the chief did not build his headdress himself. Instead, it was made and given to him by his allies or tribe – demonstrating their respect and trust.
Respect, trust, loyalty, bravery – these are all attributes I value tremendously. All of which require continuous effort and focus, and must be earned – not taken.
My father raised me to believe in my heritage – and I’ve always had a penchant for feathers. Connecting myself to a higher spirit and finding wisdom in everyday lessons have been building blocks to who I am. So the word “feathered” just seemed right – and it brought the strength I needed to my vision.
As someone who aspires to inspire, knowing that chiefs did not simply build themselves a bigger headdress, but instead earned it through supporting their community, is a notion that drives me every single day.